Stepping away from the User Forum - 01/08/19 10:40 AM
Friends, I've decided to step away from posting music on the User Forum. I'm thinking it will be permanent, but--who knows? Just wanting you to know why I'm less present going forward.
While I'm waiting to rebuild from my HD accident, I've had some time to think about my participation in the forum. I love the wide variety of postings, and I'm so impressed by the creative energy and persistence of all the members. Again, this has nothing to do with any of that.
It's all about me and my motivations.
I found that the very nice, positive, complimentary feedback was like an addiction for me, feeding a need for recognition and making me feel proud--too proud--of good songwriting work. I also saw that I was sometimes working on writing music that wasn't necessarily what I wanted, but trying too hard to use/explore the features of BIAB, rather than using the SW to 'deliver' something that I heard internally--if that makes sense.
And I was coming to feel like each week I had to--just HAD TO--write something to contribute--again, totally contrary to how I feel about how and why I create music. I'm not a woodshedding type writer--I know that works for many--but, for me, it feels most true when I compose BECAUSE I feel there's some good idea or attractive music thought.
Anyway, this is about my own feelings about excessive pridefulness and wrong motivations. I'll probably check into the forum from time to time to listen in and provide feedback, but I kind of feel "songed out", without any really good ideas right now.
Thanks again for all the nice attaboys, and keep writing, you all are inspirational!
While I'm waiting to rebuild from my HD accident, I've had some time to think about my participation in the forum. I love the wide variety of postings, and I'm so impressed by the creative energy and persistence of all the members. Again, this has nothing to do with any of that.
It's all about me and my motivations.
I found that the very nice, positive, complimentary feedback was like an addiction for me, feeding a need for recognition and making me feel proud--too proud--of good songwriting work. I also saw that I was sometimes working on writing music that wasn't necessarily what I wanted, but trying too hard to use/explore the features of BIAB, rather than using the SW to 'deliver' something that I heard internally--if that makes sense.
And I was coming to feel like each week I had to--just HAD TO--write something to contribute--again, totally contrary to how I feel about how and why I create music. I'm not a woodshedding type writer--I know that works for many--but, for me, it feels most true when I compose BECAUSE I feel there's some good idea or attractive music thought.
Anyway, this is about my own feelings about excessive pridefulness and wrong motivations. I'll probably check into the forum from time to time to listen in and provide feedback, but I kind of feel "songed out", without any really good ideas right now.
Thanks again for all the nice attaboys, and keep writing, you all are inspirational!