Hi John,

whatever you choose to do, do it.
Your neighbors will understand when you need to leave for sentimental reasons.
Your friends will understand when your eyes start to get wet.

After my first wife's passing I dedided to live "with the past" not "in the past". It is painful at times to be alone, but there is also a sort of new freedom. Memories come up front and go away again, they haunt you at times when you don't have use for them. The first year is the hardest, because you have to go through every activity alone for the first time.

The best therapy is probably: Do what you want, when you want it to do.

I wish you all the strengh to have when you need it to ride the emotional roller coaster.

Guido

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