John, your posts are truly moving of late, especially this one. Thank you for hanging in there, and in here. And this passage of yours would make a wonderful Christmas song:

"I have advice. Do what you can now. Stay up late and make the grand kids a CD. Go places and do things. Saving for the future, I did that. Enough air miles for the wife and I get 12 (24 actually) return trips to Europe. A paid up house. I'm just waiting for the test results to come back on the 19th."

Christmas songs don't necessarily have to be happy, about chestnuts roasting and reindeers with roseate noses. Here's one of my very favorite Christmas songs, by the late great Stan Rogers, another Canuck for the ages:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=chTMOuuUZi4

Best,
Daisy