Pat, I know I have been somewhat quite on the whole matter. It is by intention.
I know, that you know, the Kübler-Ross five stages of grief, which are the series of emotional stages experienced when faced with death and dying: denial, anger, bargaining, depression and acceptance. In a way, the realization of my poor musical skills after 20 years of studying and playing is akin to a death for me to deal with.
I am between denial and anger right now and I don't want to say anything stupid. For example, that I blame BIAB for this since it made making music too easy when I should have been working harder at it. Musicianship is not an entitlement that anyone can buy. But, I don't want to say that...
So I am dealing with this on my own right now. I will work it out and then be back soon.
I wouldn't worry or loose too much sleep over it, they say that someone has to spend at least 10k hours on an instrument to sort of make good progress on it.
As long as you enjoy it that's the main thing, these professionals who do it for a living have a different outlook on it from the rest of us who mainly do it for a hobby.
Sometimes too I wish I had more natural musical ability but I have to admit most times too lazy at practising the guitar.
Musiclover