I awoke from a nightmare earlier tonight...

This regards Mac and Gary's feud:

This whole situation has just given me the most HORRIBLE, DESPICABLE NIGHTMARE. I woke up not 5 minutes ago crying and screaming - in my nightmare I very nearly murdered my darling younger brother (he's 3 and a bit years younger than me and will be 45 this year) in a hot-blooded fury over petty jealousy and frustration (a crocodile-skin mobile phone for Goodness sake??). The only thing that prevented it was that I woke up before it happened

I can only put it down to this feud between you, Mac and Gary. That and the coincidence that it was my little sister's birthday today (little? She was 47 today) and I have just finished reading a book about my maternal ancestor who was one of Queen Victoria's favourite generals. I love my brother very, very much and I am extremely proud of him. I couldn't be more so. He's a real Hero to my mind. He is a major success - big house in the country, servants, Range Rover plus sports car, wife, kids, foreign holidays in exotic locations I will most likely never see, in the public eye, money, success, looks to die for, fame, fortune, popularity and so on... He has absolutely everything I have always wanted (and he never has particularly) whereas I, on the other hand, have none of it. I'm a penniless, struggling, unrecognised, sick and frustrated Artist, with a highly qualified business education (over 19 qualifications in total), living in self-imposed exile in a filthy garret far from home with a rescue dog for company, financially supported to a very limited extent by my miserly, multi-millionnaire father (to that extent, I'm a 'remittance man', if you will, but I have done nothing wrong). Even my mother (my parents are divorced and my father left her destitute and for no fault of her own - as he has many others since) has remarked that most siblings would hate each other for this kind of disparity in situation. Nonetheless and despite this, he's still my little brother and I love him very, very much

Please, please, please guys. You are like brothers to me, too. Stop this feud! I don't want or need any more nightmares of this ilk. I don't care who's 'fault' it is. It's nobody's fault but over-reaction in the playground. Please do what I did for the benefit of all here, if not yourselves - wake up before it's too late!

Follow That Dream

Sam
Karaoke King

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Turning that corner again - I have to keep following that dream, no matter what