So, bottom line is that you are too stubborn to let go of "how I've always done it"? Got it!

You were an educator and have been a pro for years. I would expect you to be able to play at exactly the same high level at Carnegie Hall and a sampan on the Ganges River. If you play better in a "real" studio, it's a mental thing. It may also be something to do with extroversion. I am the ultimate introvert and pretty much despise having to be around other people. Gigs are excruciating for me, having to be on a stage with 9 other people and in front of a crowd. To the point of hyperventilation sometimes. That whole "makin' the scene" thing may be energizing for you. For me it is energy sapping. I don't know you and likely will never meet you short of my car overheating on your street and my knocking on your door asking to fill a bucket with water for the radiator. I swear if I could play shows virtually I would. I actually may ask to play offstage if our band stays together after having the while summer off due to Covid. SO much air came out of the tires because of Covid I can't see me wanting to continue. But that's my mental issue to deal with.

Also, I fail to see how I "made it personal". I threw out horn player where I could have said guitar player, bass player, vocalist.... A little touchy, are we? Note I said "A horn player".

Last edited by eddie1261; 07/28/20 04:51 PM.