For context, remember that every inner city kid with a laptop who knows how to make an 8 bar loop in a minor key and recite badly written, angry, racist, sexist poetry is a "creator" and a "producer". Those are all considered in that total of uploads. I'll never leave that "old school" camp of opinion that if you aren't on the mainstream radio in my car that you aren't a prime time player and I don't consider you to be viable. And by that definition, I am less than gum on the bottom of the shoes of the viable players.

I want to tour. On the big bus. I want to play. In bigger rooms. Like 2500-3000 seat rooms. I have had that opportunity 3 times in my life, but it wasn't "me". It was the bands I happened to be a side player in.

The last time was in 2020. And now that I have finally conceded that due to age and physical condition, that would be the last time it could happen. As bad as Herbstock beat me up, and that was just that one time, I now admit defeat.

To me, THIS is a gig. (The Akron Civic Theater.) Anything less than this is just pretending that I am good enough. I am not about to lower myself to playing garbage music in front of people who wouldn't know good if they sat in it. It took me years to admit that I washed out in music. My music will never be on Spotify, iTunes, or any of them. It's not good enough. I'M not good enough. And I'd rather not pretend.








Last edited by eddie1261; 05/31/23 08:30 AM.