Sorry. Playing for an audience IS important. You might have thought you convinced yourself of that, but it wouldn't have lasted very long.

I almost quite music once, and even got a day gig, trying to become a fine, upstanding citizen of my country. It didn't work, I have to play music. It's not a choice.

You need to create the venue if there is not one there already. Find a restaurant and trade service for service if you have to.

I play in a marina (for pay). Another band comes in and plays for tips only on Wednesday afternoons. Sometimes they walk away with a very full tip jar. I'd guess between $50 and $100 each for a 3 hour jam. Not bad for three retirees who have nothing to do on a Wednesday afternoon.

So face it John, you have to play. You have to share your music with other people. It's selfish (and less fun) to keep it to yourself. Think of the joy you can give to others with your music.

You know you don't really want to quit performing anyway. I don't think I need to stay on the proverbial soap box ;-)

Take care, and good luck finding a venue.

Notes

Bob "Notes" Norton smile Norton Music
https://www.nortonmusic.com

100% MIDI Super-Styles recorded by live, pro, studio musicians for a live groove
& Fake Disks for MIDI and/or RealTracks