Link: Ashamed Of What I Feel

2 weeks ago Hans (Birchwood) told me that he relly liked my Song "A Fool" which I wrote 2023.
I had completely forgotten about that song, probably because I was never 100% satisfied with the guitar sound.

That means, ya'll have to deal with another rewrite of a song.

The song is basically about the same problem as in the movie "Harry and Sally":
A boy and a girl are best friends until one of them falls in love with the other
and from then on everything gets complicated.

The song was renamed to make life a little easier for my increasingly incompetent non-distributor.

Things you don't want to know but I'll tell them anyway:
  • The 1002 guitar plays the perfect arpeggio, but the attack is too dominant, especially when panned L/R.
    I tried to tame the attack with EQ and reduced the transients, but this sucked all the life out of it.
    And I was too lazy to play it myself (again).
    So I told an AI to play the same notes at the same tempo, but with smoother attacks and a little more bling, such as hammer-ons,
    pull-offs, harmonies and stuff.
    After just a gazillion attempts, I’ve finally achieved a result that I’m really happy with.
    In my opinion, this is a good example of how AI can be used.
  • I never liked the thin sound of the guitars in the chorus in the 2023 version.
    I wanted something heavy and dramatic, yet at the same time sad and melancholic.
    "Evolution Rock Standard" (a VST plugin, played on the keyboard) managed to pull that off pretty well.
  • At 66 BPM, the song is actually a bit too slow for my taste, but only at this tempo does it have exactly the mood I had in mind.
  • The MIDI from the Piano 1602 is played back as a pad with my favorite weird synthesizer (Absynth) and is layered beneath the BIAB synthesizers, barely audible.
    But it adds a lot of warmth to the sound.


Feedback (the good, the bad and the ugly) as always higly appreciated.


The usual technical information:

Style: SENSE.STY (yes, really!)

The Band:
Bass: 1929, 1523
Drums: NashvilleEven8
Guitars: 1002 (see above), 3731, 1596, 2x4158, 1000, me
Synth: 3784, 1840, me
Piano: 1602 (see above)
Vocals: AI (main) + Synthesizer V (harmonies)

Tracks Stats for those interested:
BIAB: 12x
Me: 5x
AI: 2x


You can find the lyrics in the next post.

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