I only have feedback issues in the car, and I've an appointment to fix that. It's the proximity of the driver's window, and it's an issue with horns and the door locks. And sneezing and coughing of others.

I have 90 days, or about another 6 weeks to get full refund and something else. The fact that my 'graph' is normal until 1/2 way across and then goes down on a 45 degree angle at 4900 hz means the bass needs not much boosting.

I am also still having 'changes'. The same drug that got my hearing is still messing with my mobility (peripheral neuropathy) and it's supposed to have stopped months ago, alas..it still is worsening.

But in the past month I've only lost one more note on the upper end of the piano. It's the women I can't hear, and a couple of male friends with high voices. My wife has to be about 2 feet in front of me, and talk at a nice even level. Gone are the days of talking 'at' me while I sit in a chair.

I don't need to worry about total silence. I've got a constant series of interesting compensatory noises going on to fill my day with oceans and random clicking and other great sounds including crickets that can drive me bonkers.

The tv has a Sony 5.1 sound system and the wife messed it up last week. Didn't work. All of a sudden it came on REALLY loud. That feedback was painful and I ended up ripping them out and staring at her. I think there should be a limit programmed in, I'm going to ask.

To be honest, I view the hearing as my number 3 problem. Or 4. They are talking about stretching my throat open. And my feet and hands have a bad case of heavy metal poisoning. (Cisplatin). Of course the paranoia is tough too. I went outside and took some pics yesterday, then grabbed the shovel and cleared a small path to the street so I could walk in the knee deep snow. Now my back hurts but at first I'm going, damn it's gone to my kidneys. Paranoia. Just sore muscles, most work I've done in 8 months. At least my mop of thick curly hair grew back...NOT. Look like a mangy dog. But bald on the front.

Ah, well. Still have the pleasure of being miserable and cantankerous for a short while more!

John Conley
Musica est vita